Sunday, May 9, 2010

It's my party and I'll cry if I want to...


Yep, so I'm another year older and another year uglier. I have now fallen even deeper into my dirty thirties and, gawd help me, I'm only one year away from technically being in my dreaded mid-thirties. I feel sick.

I recently came across my great aunt's old passport. Her marital status was listed as 'spinster.' She was 5 years younger than I am now. Once more, I feel sick.

I still cannot shake the fact that I am, for all intents and purposes, Bridget Jones. Now, I love Bridge. We all do. However, as hapless and lovable as the character is, I don't actually want to be the character. What am I even talking about - by the end of the second book, wasn't she engaged to the lovely Mr. Darcy???!!! Great. I'm a step or two behind Bridget Jones. I know I shouldn't feel this way, that I should just embrace my sexy spinster status, but it's still a bit of a private nightmare for me. And my mother. It also doesn't help that, when I tell people my age, they have one of the following reactions:

* the stunned, open-mouthed, slack-jawed look
* the shocked gasp
* the offering of sympathy ~ "Oh, I understand. It took me a long time to get my life together, too..."
* the look of pity and fear (my personal fave and the most common)
* the "oh, but you look so young" offering. yeah, whatever - tell that to the skin on my ass!

7 comments:

Tisha said...

what do you want?
a husband!
any, just any

or someone you can love
and trust and depend on for the
rest of your life.

Think about this and wait!

I personally along with all the good stuff i wrote on my blog value a good rapport with the one i marry.

you can't have sex 24 hrs a day now, you have to talk sometime and i like to talk when i feel safe.

Carrie Blogshaw said...

Tisha, I want a dedicated and committed (not institutionalized, though...) partner. I've been waiting a long time. I've kissed a lot of frogs. I am a spinster. 'Nuff said!

Fin said...

Happy Birthday Spinster. You don't look a year over Old Maid.

I can't believe they put spinster on a passport.

I don't know that this will make you feel better but Mom has almost a decade on you and she is just getting her act together now.

love2esme said...

Carrie-I just had a birthday as well...I sympathize! I have gotten the same reactions as you...but I have to say, I would rather be a spinster then marry another douchebag!
Love, Esme

Maria Santoferraro said...

You are fabulous just the way you are! Enjoy your thirties - they are a great time of your life - with or without a man.

It's better to be alone and happy than to be in a relationship with someone and be miserable.

Love your blog.

You may like my web-series No Songs For Men - it has a SATC feel to it. http://bit.ly/atzuE0

Carrie Blogshaw said...

thanks for all the comments - particularly yours, Esme! Just want to clarify that I'm looking for a dedicated partner, not any old douchebag (not looking to enter the douchepocalypse, thanks!). really, I've experienced enough over the years to be certain that I don't enjoy douching.

Ginger said...

Happy Birthday Carrie. Believe you are wonderful just the way you are! An aunt still found love in her early forties so I know there's hope for us all :-D